"LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST"

2010-09-08T16:32:00.000+08:00

just go as far away from me!!!
don't affect me.

2010-09-07T03:14:00.003+08:00

its all trapped inside.
i don't know how to get them out.
i don't know how to express it out.
and now my only way is to ...
so sorry .
i just felt tt everything is no longer the same anymore.
maybe its because i have changed?!
i don't know!!!
but i will still try to pull myself back !!!

2010-09-06T14:20:00.000+08:00

I JUST HATEHATEHATE BEING AT HOME!!!
HOMERUN IN PROGRESS AGAIN!!!
FRUSTRATED.

2010-09-05T23:49:00.002+08:00

so anything i'm at fault.
you just push all the blame to me , thinking tt i'm the bad one.
don't even bother to find out the truth, and just so confirm tt it's me?!
wrongly accused AGAIN!!!
so used to it!!! now tt i don't even bother to explain anymore.
just push everything to me. i will take everything.
i shall be the bad one , and your ~~~~ is forever right, and i'm wrong!!!
what makes me so angry was tt you don't even trust me , find out the truth before accusing me for doing anything, just ANYTHING!!!
so this is how you treat me huh?!?!?!?
fine , maybe all this is "fated" to be like this.
i'm to live this kind of life.
and tts my life huh ?!

2010-09-05T19:27:00.003+08:00

So it did not last huh?!
just a short moment, so short tt i didn't even have time to enjoy it and its kind of over.
I just couldn't understand , what happened to me ?
one problem down , and i thought things would be better yet another pop out.
maybe i shouldn't have afternoon nap huh?! its always this time tt makes me think of a lot of things , waking up and realising tt its so true , i'm not dreaming. its time to do something about it , but i dunno how!!!
sometime it just makes me so trouble , hopefully tt maybe some things shouldn't have started in the beginning , or maybe i shall just stop it immediately , end everything ,just too tired to contiune. suffering from insomnia is really terrible , especially during this period of time , when exams and everything just come all at once. sometimes i feel tt sleeping is wasting so much of my time , i don have time to sleep , like i have a lot of things left undone and i need to clear them immediately tt kind. waking up after every sleep just makes me feel so guilty. everytime rolling on the bed trying so hard to sleep but stuffs just keep popping out like devil trying to win over me tt kind. rolling there till 6/7am and eyes still wide open , and my parents just told me you have got dark eye circle now!!! it has also affected my appetite , i can skip meal the whole day , and i can survive with just water.[but i still look fat]. It seems that currently only by studying can stop me from thinking , and "numb" the pain.
i just pray hard tt god will take all this things far far away me and will no longer come back. i just want to be happy , can i?
i can no longer take it [tt kind of terrible feeling] , i just feel like ending everything , and sometimes thinking of self-harming myself, to "ease" the pain.simply , just want it to go away from me. but it seems so near yet so far ):
..........
Yup my brother made the first step today , to accept christ . he is really fast and furious !!! hahahha he have been to quite some church before which were all catholic church , and this was his first time coming to baptist church , like out of so many he went , he "choosed" to join the FCBC family. i'm impressed at the same time shock with his "sudden" decision. just hope tt he will enjoy (: Today during service , he is so much high den me !!! during worship we went infront , and he raised his hand and sing along , he jumped during high songs ,like wow !!! he is indeed FAST & FURIOUS !!! all this things have really make us closer and sort of understand each other better.
thank god for all this wonderful things he had done for us (:

2010-09-04T02:07:00.001+08:00

doesEXPECTATIONSmatter.

2010-09-03T22:27:00.002+08:00

having to ensure tt i behave very careful infront of you , not showing what i am not suspose to show it. its tough but i have to.
frankly speaking, i'm kind of afraid everytime i'm with you.
i'm scare.
just get this feeling away from me.
i want it to return to how it was in the beginning.
but after all this things , can it still happen?!
afraid to know how you think .
i am who i am .
i can't change myself just because this particular person doesn't like me tt way or anything.
its your choice to like me or hate me,
i'm not perfect , i can't please everyone.
i'm created to be like this , to be who i am NOW!!
i can't stop anyone from jugding me or anything.
i still have to continue with my life.
ITs MY LIFE ,afterall.
everyone is different/special or even unique, in our own way (:
uhmmm.....

2010-09-03T20:16:00.002+08:00

so many things going on now!!!
basically exams exams and more exams.
went dinner with parents just now. and they were talking about retirement stuffs .
if everything is smooth , get to uni after poly den most probably my parents will be like 60 when i finish uni !! like WOW , time don't wait for anyone.
and will be entering uni with my brother at the same time ,if i can make it.
and and and
my daddy told me he wanted to get me iphone4 as my 18th birthday present. like WOW!!!
he wanted to get it for me,wowwowwow.
english lessons in poly is so so so much better and fun compared to secondary which were so boring, no motivation to study english at all. just hope hope hope tt i can pass my english this time round. i don want third chance , 2 is enough.
"your remedy for anxiety is the question: 'Will this matter in a year from now?'
All too often you get so involved in things that you look at life through a microscope. Amplifying manifold, an invisible speck becomes an insurmountable mountain. Put down the microscope and imagine yourself a year from now looking back at today: 'Does this really matter?'"

2010-09-03T01:49:00.004+08:00

i finally understand LIANG MING!!!
the mms you sent me ,on the damn emo sunday when we were at the macdonald's carpark!!!
REVELATION 21:4 (:
i understand!!!
okay i know its like 3 weeks ago and till now den i understand!! hahahha
qouted : "ALL THESE things are gone FOREVER" , "no more sorrow" !!!
goh since now tt i'm sort of better compared to the past , i shall try my very best to pull you out of the very negative you!!! you got to work with me and god , i can't do this alone!!! ALL THE THINGS WILL BE GONE FOREVER , GOH!!! stop saying you cannot do it now or what so ever, change your mindset , and start working on it !!! youcan youcan youcan !!! better don say you cannot i tell you!! i box you ar!!! hahahlol
you will be out of all this "nightmares" SOON (((:
praypraypray!!!

2010-09-02T23:44:00.002+08:00

one module down!!!
today was one of the most well-spend day!!!
i woke up like 9am and went to register for driving.
noon from like 11am i started studying in the library till like 5pm without a moment being distracted. till goh and QC came , we studied for another hour den we went to meet the others. and so proud of myself !! hahahha sitted in the library and study straight for 7 hours!!! and i'm done with biochem !!! 3 more modules to go!! sat i shall go library again (:
............
suddenly have the thought of going to junior college. was thinking if i manage to pass my english this time , maybe i shall go jc. cause i don like the education system for poly, its like nobody cares if you study, no pressure at all. i'm a student who needs to study under lots of pressure and stress, tt motivates me to study hard. but if i really go , i think i will be the oldest jc students!!! still considering...but i must not regret my choice !!! any suggestions?!?!?!? help me help me!!!

2010-09-01T20:36:00.006+08:00

OHOHOH!!! what is happening!!!
8 days since i'm 18.
things changed a lot!!!
what happened what happened what happened?!?!?!
i'm so happy !!!
i started to "chat" & talk with my brother.
& whats more!!!
today , or in fact just,
he bought a dozen of donuts home to celebrate my belated birthday!!!
wow!!! i'm shocked & impressed.
because this is so not his style,
he normally don care bout all this things , its like a normal day to him in the past!!
i'm touched (:
and my parents suggested to go town to celebrate my korkor & mine belated birthday.
buffet in town!! like wow again
cause my parents don't like going "high class" resturant to eat,
cause expensive ,etc
and now they suggested it, not us!!!
WOW.WOW.WOW !!!
what is happening?!what is happening?!what is happening?!
and today i had my analytical chemistry mock test. so was suppose to study for it , but yesterday i studied for like 5 mins ,can no longer tahan ,i went to sleep!!! like i just flipped one page and i seriously studied nth at long. can only base on what i have learned before the holiday!! and i thought the paper was tough, but in the end i passed!!! and i got like 71/100 ?!
AGAIN WOW.WOW.WOW
what is happening?!what is happening?!what is happening?!
very simple!! i just want to THANK LORD!!!(:
THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME "GET OUT" OF THE PAST ME!!
and of course not forgetting my friends who have encouraged me too(:
i am proud to say "I'm currently a happy girl now". it will last right?!
LOVE YOU ALL TO THE MAX (((:
*muackz* *muackz* *muackz*

2010-09-01T00:55:00.002+08:00

GUILTY.
sorry if i have made anyone worried.
now i understand.
and shall apply(:
{1 Corinthians 7:23 TLB}

2010-08-31T23:15:00.004+08:00

talking about tresuring people around us.
I treasure everyone, be it friends/families,etc
but i can't seems to treasure myself.
why?
what happened to me?
I don't treasure everyday.
Years back , i was always so looking forward to everyday, looking forward to go to school.
But now i'm becoming so lazy.
feeling so useless that i can't help.
why am i so negative towards myself.
i want to get rid of all this. but how?!
saying it is so much easlier then doing it!!!
troubled.

2010-08-31T15:40:00.002+08:00

"Difficult people are very important, - they teach you tolerance and acceptance.
If all was going your way all the time, you would become a spoiled child, wouldn't everyone? Difficult people are just one of the ways God teaches us to expand beyond our egos and accept other perspectives on life."
after reading this , immediately i thought of someone.

2010-08-31T15:28:00.002+08:00

today i was actually suppose to meet up with secondary school mates to visit teachers and celebrate teachers' day. was quite looking forward to see mas again!! but cause i couldn't wake up !! and i miss the chance to see them!! like i slept at 7am in the morning [cause time is so against me, i think i just need to start studying immediately!! so i shut down my com and study from 4-7am !!! and i was suppose to meet them at 1030. people called me , texts me , alarm clock rings , i could hear none!!! though i have studied last night but i still think tt i have not study enough to go for exams!! have a.chem mock test tomorrow!!!! CHIONG AR!!!

2010-08-31T03:40:00.008+08:00

I have been like sort of affected myself emotionally this few months on family stuffs.
tearing about it. and even thinking of committing sucide to end everything.
BUT after i got to know GOD , having faith in him and everything .
trusting him and listening to his words does help!![not sure was it Him telling me , but i just got those words ;)]
He gave me the courage to speak up to someone.
He strengthen me with his power , to make me stronger and fearless.
somebody told me this : "god don't give us fear , he removes it from us."
if we feel fearful , its definitely not from god.remove it.
i have been reflecting on what i was told and those lessons to be learn.
thinking tt i am actually quite silly in the past, stubborn perhaps.
but now on the first step getting to know GOD ,
i thought tt actually i did change.
meaning tt He have "touched" me?
i want to surrender everything before Him, because "God will make a way".
He planned everything even before we were born, so why worry,knowing tt He is there for us.[another words from friends]
okay back to topic :
watched the 5th video for 40dof and its talking about hmmm... "you can go great things"
god will use us to do great things. something like tt. so i was sharing blaaablaaablaaa ...
and at 1am my brother came into my room and asked me about church stuffs , like how is FCBC like,etc. so i was sharing with him ,and asking him whether if he wants to join me this coming sunday and he said OKAY and can i bring one of my friends along?! its like WOW !!!
and i'm like psycho-ing him to join me in FCBC !! cause he got 2 other church in mind , but still undecidable.
Though we are siblings, we don't really settle ourselve down to chat , in fact we never have tt chance to do so till today 31st aug 2010 !!! we din settle down beside or infront of each other to talk about church , but he was in the living room and i was inside room , we were actually shouting across . talk about things like church , god , friends ,etc. things tt we have never done before in the past. For like 18 years!!! and yes after 18 years we did tt. and finally we are now msn friends!! hahahaahahhalol tts sounds bit ridiculous but its real!!
Things have indeed changed abit huh?!
"Praise the LORD!!!" [tts what i learned hahahahhalol]
and after cell just now , my parents came down to fetch me home , and AGAIN without fail they will "disturb" my friends,be it friends they know/don't know . they just love to disturb my friends in what ever funny and lame ways they can think of. but i thought that was cool ?! lots of laughters in the car whenever my parents speaks.
I do see a change in my life now. THANK GOD (:
Feeling so much better compared to the few weeks ago me!!!
hopefully it will be better in future (:
side track :
TIME IS SO AGAINST ME!!!
its time to settle down and start studying for EXAMS and english!!!
no time to play till my sch exams finish!!!
jiayou jiayou to those having exams now !!! WE ALL CAN DO IT (((((:

2010-08-31T00:34:00.003+08:00

I felt that i belong no where.
no where on earth.
just an ugly.
says :
" you are exactly where you are meant to be. Trust in god that everything is exactly the way it is supposed to be. "
"what you are most afraid of is where your greatest rewards are. If all you had to do was wish for something and you would have it ,life would be pretty boring,wouldn't it? God placed barries between us and what we want , so we can enjoy interesting and satisfying lives. God hid our biggest rewards behind the highest barries - our deepest fear. God wants us to face our fears and hold ground in their presence and let them go, and that's how we get our biggest rewards. what are you most afraid of? say it, just start by saying it. "
after reading this , i was asking myself
"so what am i so afraid and fearful of? "
"have i say it all out?"
but no matter what, i will continue to stay strong.
knowing from within tt ....

2010-08-29T23:43:00.004+08:00

there are ups and downs in life . each time we fall , we stand up again,no matter how many times we fall.though you might not be the winner or anything but at least we did our best , we finish our race. tts the most important. http://www.the-race-movie.com/ <<< this is really inspirating (: thanks to kok soon for sharing tt website. i play one video almost everyday , making sure i don fall back to the past again.make sure i stand up everytime i fall.because we never know the ending, we never know what is planned for us , so the only way is to "look forward" ,am i right to say tt?! >>> the website he gave : http://www.achieveezine.com/videos/

2010-08-29T23:08:00.002+08:00

you break your promise.
am i right?!
everything was once said to be a promised to keep it save , was broken
rightrightright!!!
i'm not angry
but just kind of disappointed.
sad to say,
i will still trust you
because you are my ...... [someone tt will not be mention]
ps : its not my bf or anything (:
but it does hurt when i got to know tt you broke your promise to me!!!
i will still say ,
you are forgive.
don't wanna think about it anymore (:
.......................................................................................
registering for driving!!! but i believe i will be like broke by the time i pass. its like everything also need money and its not cheap. shall start saving again , bring bread to school again!!! (((:

2010-08-28T03:40:00.003+08:00

CHANGING.CHANGING.CHANGING IN PRORESS
I did my self created survey on liangming and wyping. and here is their respond.
Wyping :
wat i think abt u???
hmmmmm......
nono
u shldn ask me
cos i think u r too normal for me
u belog to my type
the siao cha bor
type
siao finish alrdy can be emo type to be exact!
hahahahahha
yesyes
typing
caring,noisy,unpredictable,singing queen,when-emo-that-time-too-quiet, and
too easliy affected by comments,things etc etc
happy?
i knw u well right?
hahahahaha
NO OFFENCE HORRR
change ur attitude oso!
ur emo attitude!
cos right
sometimes during events, halfway thru e events u will get damn emo
thn u will keep to urself
CHANGE THAT MAN
seriously
i hope i don hurt u butt...i don wanna see u keep to urself!
cos i don want u to be quiet so i ask u change
LiangMing :
you aeeeeee a very sweeeeeet girl! i like your laughter !
though at times negative, but i see potenital in you... and you can grow out of it!
the negative part lorrr..
and must open up and learn to share moreeee!
and not try to run away
i edited them bit if not very long.
its a survey to change me!!!
so i said this :
qimin says:
remember i said i want to change!! hahahah so now i'm asking and changing!!! continue the positive parts and work on the negative parts
qimin says :
yeahyeahyeah!!!
hahahahlol i can walk it out !!!
liangming says:
yess u can!
dont give up okay
qimin says:
i will not
liangming says:
trust in God... trust also in urself!
.................................................................
i will continue with the positive me and work on the negative side of me (:
don mind i post it right GOH & WONG ?! cause i locked my blog already . nobody will see hahaha only us.
thank you for making this survey so successful though only 2 of your done it.
i will not give up !!!

2010-08-28T01:13:00.002+08:00

why is it tt everytime i'm trying so hard to change myself ,to forget things & be positive .
SOMEONE must add on to it, just like a devil trying to fail me.
so so so tired and sick of it!!!
can YOU just mind your own business and stop affecting me?!
so who am i to you ?!
not trusting me the way you should.
doubting me!!
am i so not trustworthy?!
fine then , i accept tt this is a fact. and continue to treat me this way.
you said things tt are so not true ,yet expect me to answer!!
okay maybe i should behaviour tt way huh , since you kept saying.
is there a problem with how i'm living , tt you want to bother it so much?
i had enough of all this.
JUST SAVE ME OUT OF THIS.
i feel that i belong no where.
where ever i go , i feel .......
no place just suits me
maybe i should just stay on the street?!
tts being the always "obedient" one , makes you happy?
i think so. BUT NOT TO ME!! i can't do tt.
i don blame anyone but myself for being so weak , and got affected EASILY.
I SURRENDER!!!
whatever you want to said , whatever you want to do to affect me , just go ahead.
can't avoid to hear them , i shall be a mute and say nth.
listen and let it affect me den.
i'm too weak , totally defendless.
BUT I WILL CONTINUE TO CHANGE MYSELF , NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I'M GOING TO FAIL.
I BELIEVE I WILL SUCCEED ONE DAY ,
believing tt god & my friends will be there for me.

2010-08-26T17:54:00.007+08:00

AM I LONELY?
AM I DRIFTING AWAY?

i feel so lonely.
feeling so fearful & afraid at times.
i got affected easily.
i got no confident in myself,
always feeling like a loser.
I MUST GET RID OF ALL THESE!!!
but how?
no matter what i must change ;)

2010-08-25T20:20:00.002+08:00

18.
A brand new story.
i'm going to change my way of thinking.
i want to change myself to be more positive.
currently still doing great with my changing.
i want to "restart" everything !!!
Finally get rid of o'level eng oral ,was quite manageable .
no regret not performing well.
i thought i have done my best there, every bit tt i have learned ,i just shot everything out.
though can see tt i'm bit nervous . but overall was quite okay. The examiner even wish me all the best for my english. like wow examiner will say such things !!
thank you everyone who prayed for me , encourage me ,and have faith in me. tt really does help (: i prayed like dunno how many times when i was in the exam hall, praying for all my friends who retake and of course praying for myself too !! it does work (:
thank god for everything (:
thank my lovely friends for everything too (:
upcoming SP exams for 2 weeks !!!
planning to register for driving tomorrow.

2010-08-24T13:54:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU EVERYBODY WHO WISHES ME (:

2010-08-24T01:44:00.005+08:00

i am really afraid.
thank you everyone for your encouragement(:
but i'm so afraid tt i will disappoint myself, disappoint everyone who cares.
i'm so afraid to face it.
face everything. i'm such a loser.
though i'm fear of it , i will still have to face them.
but everybody, don't expect much from me,
cause i might disappoint you.
its all about EXPECTATIONS right?!
next year jan i have got no idea how i am going to face it. how should i collect the results and open it and see!!!
the feeling of retaking is a lot different from the first time. a lot more pressure then expected.

2010-08-22T19:23:00.004+08:00

waking up from nap 10mins ago.
feeling so AFRAID,LOST.
suddenly realising how near everything is , english papers , school exams , course interview.
having the feeling of ,i am losing everything, and i am still here ,sleeping.
so afraid.very afraid. but i dunno what to do.
just want to get rid of this feeling right away.
ending everything doesn't help solve anything but create more truobles to the others, i know it clearly, yet i'm still having tt thought.
i was so elated on friday , i thought everything changed , i thought i am able to live a brand new life,forgetting about the past but negative stuffs appeared once again.trying so hard to change something ,yet just a second and all my effort could be wasted.
i am so useless!!!
i hate myself for being like this.
people PLEASE hate me , so tt i won't feel tt i'm dragging you guys down , you won't feel the pain if i do anything. just hate me as you wish.
i know crying doesn't help , but i just tear ,locking myself inside my room and tear.
but i strongly believe tt all this things will end very soon.
because...
i want to change my way of living , thinking , in fact i want to change everything of me.
DEVIL you go AWAY!!!
okay i shall try it again. today , tonight shall be the last night i will like this. I promise tt i will try to change to be more positive.but i'm not sure if this promise will be promise, because i know myself too well , i have made so many promises to others to myself in the past yet i fullfill none.
i can't do this ALONE .
i don't want to do this ALONE.
i hate being ALONE.
but i don't want to dragged anyone down.
knowing tt god will be with me , but i felt tt i have disappoint him.
okay~~~
change.positive.change.positive.change.positive.
"On this day of your life, Lim, we believe God wants you to know ... that tomorrow you will harvest the seeds you sow today.
What kind of seeds do you need to sow today, so tomorrow turns into the dream you have always wanted?"

2010-08-20T22:19:00.002+08:00

my Book to GOD is getting retro-er and retor-er!!! the colours are fading ,and its becoming so cool. WOW !!! lots of "untold-secrets" and stories (: so it must be with me every where i go !!!

2010-08-20T21:21:00.003+08:00

dinner cum shopping with mummy just now!!
we had steak for dinner and this is the first time i have dinner with my parents in a resturant cause normally they will say its very expensive and have to queue and wait . surprisingly tonight they actually waited !!! wow
indeed things really changed , i changed the way i think , i live , in fact today was a bright new start , a new life for me . and things really did show improvement , everything proved. so happy !!! (((:
too happy means a lot of food intake !! means i need to go gym later!!
just now we went to jack's place for dinner and we had steak!!! as you know steak contains lots and lots of ca lu li. after tt went shopping with mama and we bought lots of panti!!! hahahahha and 6box of cotton woo....etc. suddenly realised i can be really aunty when i go shopping with my mummy.
out of a sudden , woke up today feeling so so so different from the past few months!!!
and tt kind of feel is GOOD!!
but can it last ?!
tomorrow's sengkangers appreciation day !!!
i believe our hardwork and effort put in doing those gifts will be pay off (:
looking forward to so many things!!!
2more appreciation gifts to go and 10 letters to write. tonight gonna be a "good good night". i have been staying up late almost everyday since holiday started , yet not started with any revisions for up-coming exams!!!
the only things tt is troubling me now is english homework!!!! tons and tons!!! and not yet done.and oral is next wednesday!!!!!!

2010-08-20T17:14:00.002+08:00

A "brand new" day , a brand new start.
i'm kicking back alive(:
am i?! hahahah
a brand new day , yet chionging appreciation gifts again today with QC & GOH.
they are all inside my room , adding on to the mess!! hahahah but we are enjoying finding,pasting,writing.

2010-08-20T04:53:00.003+08:00

soon to be 5am and i'm still trying to chiong the appreciation gifts!!!
its like i am only doing for my grp of 8 people and i'm soon to be ki siao-ing already. just imagine if i do for everyone ,and sat you will not see my eyes.
but liangming is doing tt!!!for everyone!!! wow!!!
i'm not the art kind of person so i take super long to do one simple thing!!!
i find my appreciation gifts very ugly !!! hope they can understand me !!! hahahah
but i do it from my heart one okay!!
this is the first time in my life , me doing such things for others. cause normally i won't have the patience to do all this. i was amazed by myself too (: maybe i'm changing !!! hahahahhalol
after like chionging for like a day only , i can't see my bed already!!!
my room is in a bigbigbig mess!!! bed covered with all the materials , rubbish all on the floor and table!!!
at 5am in the morning i am sweeping and packing my room!!!
and appreciation gifts not done yet . 2 more to go for "decorating" part. and i have not write any thing on all of them yet!!!
FIGHTING !!
i shall go gym tomorrow night man!!! my bones are cracking , i have been like sitting the whole day, i can feel tt my butt is expanding. and tomorrow morning qc and goh coming my house to do the appreciation stuffs . and i am still here ,not sleep!!!
2 more compo , 1 compre, and oral "writting" not done ,and all due at the same time!!! EXAMS coming too!!! oh my tian!!! so many things happening at once. thank god for keeping me so busy , making sure i got no free time to go think of "boliao" stuffs (:

2010-08-20T00:27:00.002+08:00

http://www.achieveezine.com/videos/
no worries its not virus.
i browsed through this website and it inspires me A LOT!!!
i will live life to the max, and not let "small hurts" ,hurts me and make me tear.
i will be happy because i want to be happy.
let nth stop me.
i'm actually quite selfish, i thought.
thinking only about myself ?!
realising how tiny my problems are when i see somebody in worst conditions and yet not giving up.
enough of all this NONSENSE LIM QIMIN!!!
[signals tt i might suffer from split personality/despression]
what am i man!!!
"The difference between triumphant success or bitter failure lies in the degree of our commitment to seek out,study,and apply."
"It's the master key that unlocks the door to wealth and happiness the glue that binds inspiration to achievement ,the bridge between thought and accomplishment."
"We must all suffer from one of two pains : the pain of discipline or the pain of regret."
"The difference is discipline weighs ounces while regret weighs tons."
lesson learned.

2010-08-19T21:45:00.006+08:00

Frastrated.stress.pressure.worries.EXPECTATIONS.
Frastrated.stress.pressure.worries.EXPECTATIONS.
Frastrated.stress.pressure.worries.EXPECTATIONS.
Frastrated.stress.pressure.worries.EXPECTATIONS.
Frastrated.stress.pressure.worries.EXPECTATIONS.
Frastrated.stress.pressure.worries.EXPECTATIONS.
Frastrated.stress.pressure.worries.EXPECTATIONS.
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i have enough of all this, in fact too much!!!!
ENOUGH.
only if.
sometimes really wish tt i was not born.
LIM QIMINLIM QIMINLIM QIMINLIM QIMINLIM QIMINLIM QIMINLIM QIMINLIM QIMINLIM QIMINLIM QIMINLIM QIMIN
is meeting expectations really so important tt ..........................................
sometimes i really don understand. when adults say "ITS FOR YOUR OWN GOOD" whenever they want us to do something. do they really know what is for our own good?! i doubt so.
to me it seem more like "for THEIR own good".
want us to do things at THEIR OWN DESIRE and think tt its always right and good.
we have no rights to say anything!! but JUST OBEY !!!!
okay i want to get rid of all this negative thoughts asap and live happily everyday.
but how.
tired.

2010-08-19T16:13:00.002+08:00

I got really affected by the weird uncle yesterday night!!!
i can't sleep just now all because of him , and i just woke up !!!
his look , his way of talking to us, his everything make me so scare!!!
and he remindered me of me got chase by drunk bagalas last year!!!
oh my tian !!!! my life is so "exciting"!! keep meeting this kind of weird people.
and luckily i was with a grp of friends , if not i dunno what i will do man!!!
i'm still in a very shock dao mood.

wasted so much time, and needa chiong my appreciation gifts by today !!!
and i still got like compre and 2 compo need to chiong !!!
time is so so so packed.
i want to do so many things but .. aRRRRR

2010-08-19T04:05:00.004+08:00

chio?! hahahahhahlol
i cannot have a moment of settling myself down man!!!
keep myself busy !!!
had a SURPRISE birthday party for goh just now !!!
cool!!!
exciting!!!
and whats more !!! hahahhaha
hope you have enjoyed yourself , your once in a life time 18th birthday celebration!!!

2010-08-18T14:58:00.002+08:00

Helloooooooooooooooooooo everybadddyyyyyy!!!
hahahahhahahha!! yepyep! its my bday to day and im honoured to be writing in BFF's qm's blog! u guys muz be wondering...how come she's there???? hahahhaha!

no lah...cos qm's at my hse now and she's using my com just now!! hehehe! ok..she's chasinh me alrdy..so byeee!! im juz being lame here! hahaha!

2010-08-18T14:32:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 18TH GOH !!!
hope you will enjoy your birthday today ((:
i believe you will right !!!
things are getting much better now!! at least i now i got the moody to do my work and study !!! and i have been waiting for this day for so long and yes finally after like a year , i'm finally back to the last time quite hardworking me [ days i chiong everynight for o's]
i just want to forget every sad things tt have been bothering me this few months andn even years!!
its very hard but i will & i am willing to give it another try man (((:
exams are coming and o'level english oral next week = STRESS STRESS STRESS !!!
but like what my friends have told me i shouldn't give up everything especially my studies!!! cause i work so hard for the past 15 years and really chionging so hard during sec 2 and almost die studying for N & O's !! shouldn't let all my effort go down to drain just like tt !!!
people listen !!! i just mentioned all tt above and !!!!
i was late for today's lesson for like one hour!!!!
i overslept!!! feeling so guilty !!! hahahahha
i reached there for like 30mins class ended!!! but i still stayed back to complete everything before i go off (:
parents out there , just a reminder , if you don want your child to suffer in future den don give birth btw august to oct!!!cause its like exam months!!!!
seriously ever since secondary , i have not celebrate my birthday peacefully!!!and so is GOH!!!
message for today :
"On this day of your life, Lim, we believe God wants you to know ... that your pilgrimage to God is your pilgrimage to yourself.
It's never too late to start, and it's never too soon to take one more step on your pilgrimage. "

2010-08-18T01:36:00.001+08:00

okay i thought this is cool.
"A mathematical formula for happiness: Reality divided by Expectations. There are two ways to be happy: improve your reality or lower your expectations." - Jodi Picoult
but how to apply?!

2010-08-17T22:30:00.005+08:00

i just realised , never in my 18 years of life have i "hth" with my parents , talk about our things[troubles] . we never !!! we only joke around and nobody in my family know a single thing "my troubles". wow tts cool huh?! and i just realised it too. we don talk to each other , to like chat to know more about my life or anything . we just "joke" ?! and ya i think tts all . our way of "communicating" for the past 18 years was i ask and they answer , they won't ask why or anything.
they may have like granted me a lot of freedom to do whatever i want but , "its too freedom" i thought. more like they don really bother or care about me and just let me be. others wanted freedom from parents badly , i have it but when they granted me freedom , i feel distant away , further and further away from them.
so stress to go home everytime !! and sometimes i have no choice but to loiter outside till i'm tired?! or after i think they have gone to sleep?!
HOME is a place for comfort , for love?! but i don feel it!! i find it more like a hotel to me!! almost alone at home everyday.
every morning i wake up , i got to settle my stomache myself , watching tv alone !!
and who cares!!!
i just hate being alone !!!
i don really dare to dream / hoping tt one day i will not feel stress coming home.
some thought tt i have got a "happy family" , but do i really have it?!
*do not judge a book by its cover*
i realised tt as i grow older , i become weaker.
i don have "terrible" parents or what[they don abuse me..etc] but i just feel so stress facing them everytime/everyday!!!
am i just thinking too much , making myself so terrible?!
hopefully i am.
i want to change , i want to be more positive .
i said this like thousands of times but till now i still can't achieve it!!
i feel so useless, worthless , and meaningless!!!!!!
i tried to be happy when i'm out with friends or anybody and hopefully tt does help to reduce my chance of getting depression?! *touchwood*

2010-08-17T22:06:00.005+08:00

i got that kind feeling and thoughts once again!!
it just suddenly pop out.
promised not to have such thoughts, but i can't help it.
it just keeps popping in my head.
i have got the same feelings same thoughts as tt day!!
its terrible, feeling damn terrible.
staying at home makes me super stress for dunno what reasons!!
a lot pressure!!!!!!!!!!! no body pressure me but ...
ARH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
am i the one pressuring myself!!!
want to let it go and stop everything but i dunno how!!!
i hate this feeling
i just hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!!
feeling so "heavy-hearted" for dunno what!!!
hao xin ku orh!!!!
i want to have break and i think i need , but no time!!! everything coming at once!! exams;o'level eng; stupid things popping in my head!!!
but if i have break , meaning i "have" time to think of things i don want to think of!!!!
maybe tearing does help?!
tear ,and i will feel swollen?! and i will feel tired?! and i will sleep peacefully ?!
i feel so useless , i feel so worthless. i'm nobody !!!
I HATE MYSELF!!!

2010-08-17T20:03:00.002+08:00

i slept like 3 hours last night and was too tired to even have any food. other then the latte taken in the afternoon , and elipse ,i had nth the whole day. too tired to even chew!!
so night fianlly i cannot tahan already , i went down to buy my dinner and i almost fainted or even fall down the escalator when coming out of foodcourt. luckily i din faint / fall down the escalator!!! if not tonight my dinner will settle in the hospital!!!

2010-08-17T09:43:00.002+08:00

i'm so so amazed by myself !!!
slept at 5am and i woke up at 8am !!!
and now i'm trying to do some homework!!!
and later still need to meet goh for some stuffs , hopefully i can complete by today!!
cause its torturing!!!
oh ya i keep forgetting tomorrow is GOH's birthday!!! but will be having lessons tomorrow.
hopefully you have an "unforgettable" and enjoyable birthday celebration yesterday. its a pity you can't stay with us last night , but we will be waiting for tt day to come man (:
so so so tired now but time are precious!! no more time for break.

2010-08-17T03:14:00.003+08:00

so much things happened this few days/weeks.
so tired of all of them man!!!
teared till as if it will not dry and its free[even though its really free!!]
my tears are so weak !!
but i believe everything will be fine SOON!!!! :)
i'm so stress!!!
btw my "book to GOD" is getting like cooler and cooler!!
so in love with it man!!!
i need some colours in my life (:
oh ya and i got this message from fb
"On this day of your life, Lim, we believe God wants you to know ... that you can be an echo of your past, or the glory of your future. Past is connected to future through the present. At this very moment, at every moment, you are choosing to carry on the past with all its troubles on your shoulders, OR to let it go and see bright future pull your forward. Choose wisely. "
is it coincidence or ?!
cause i day before ........

2010-08-17T03:02:00.003+08:00

have a very cool 18th birthday pajamas party yesterday will XY,MAG,MQ,WP.
its actually a combined party [GOH and mine 18th birthday party]
everyone of them really got their pajamas but i got no time to buy , so my cousin offered me hers and its damn sexy !!!
had a feast man!!! good food ,good games , good talk , awesome time taking pictures and getting ourself WET!!!
and today they stayed tgt with me and we are still playing now!! erm i should be specific ,they playing and me blogging!! hahahah
and i think we took like 600+ photos!!
oh ya really thankful to my sister!! (((:
thank you for clearing up things for me!!! i feel so guilty !! hahahaha
what can i do to get over my guilty?! hahaha

2010-08-17T02:26:00.004+08:00

BFFs was asking me a lot of questions,
FIRSTLY, hows life!! hows school!!
and what should i say?!
i'm starting to hate school!!!
they said i was once very motivated to study but now i no longer got this feeling!!!
competing with classmates[really smart ppl] makes me so tired.
being a singapore student is really stress!!
a once so love to study me ,is now becoming like this!!
what have happened to me man!!!!!!!
i hate myself like tt,but what to do ? how to change?
SECONDLY, am i happy?!
so i asked myself , AM I?!
so much things happened this few weeks!!
THIRDLY, do you want a BF?
not at the moment ?! i think it will burden me even more!!
okay never mind!! hahahahah
but really thankful to LIANG MING (:
for always accompanying me till late night !!
to have supper!!!!! talktalktalk!!!
THANK YOU and SORRY for troubling you everynight!!!
[almost everynight !!!]
even though she got school the next day ,she still accompany me!!!
gam sia you (:
hopefully i din give you nightmare !! hahahha
calling you out so suddenly in the middle of the night!!
scare of me le ba!!! hahahahahah phobia of me calling you already ?! hahahahlol
thank you for your TISSUE PAPER and do remember to re-stock your tissue paper !!
i realised how important tissue ARE and i will TREASURE them !! hahahha
thank you for "forcing me"!? hahaha
hopefully i'm really feeling better now (:

2010-08-14T23:33:00.002+08:00

had a great day today.
even though i got really pissed off with myself , for forgetting my key!!
great day for burning fats!! but our dinner was a feast!!
after tt went timezone...
so much fun today.
but !!!
i'm sick!!!

2010-08-14T02:41:00.003+08:00

is this what people known as "stepping out of comfort zone" ?!
if yes , den i think i have done it. but i think its not enough!!!!
i feel so far away from getting out !! how to get out ?! people tell me :)

2010-08-14T02:36:00.002+08:00

CHALLENGES!!
DIFFICULTIES!!
TROUBLES!!
EVERY SINGLE PROBLEMS!!!
i dunno how i'm going to but i will try my best to overcome !! i will try la huh :)
okay maybe i shouldn't have think of it tt way to settle everything .

2010-08-14T02:33:00.002+08:00

I JUST WANT TO SAY
THANK YOU & SORRY.
THANK YOU for always being there for me
SORRY if i have let you down.
this things mentioned above are for "those" people :)
if you dunno its you den ....

2010-08-14T02:27:00.002+08:00

are everything really planned?! HE knows everything!!
everything seems so coincidental.
i guess i just need TIME, but i can't really take it anymore !!
I need COURAGE !!
its not tt i don want to share , i want to !! but i just don have the courage to say !!
BUT ,
I have decided to give in!!

GOH i understand your conditions!!! but you really made me so lonely can!!!
ARH~~~~

2010-08-10T15:14:00.002+08:00

It marks to an end to NDP'10.
have a crazy and awesome day yesterday.
so much fun.
i'm lovin it :)
even though i chu chou alot of times yesterday but i learned from there.
though NDP'10 have ended , our FRIENDSHIPS will never end ,its just the beginning of everything :)

2010-08-06T12:44:00.004+08:00

Let yesterday be the past , the past will always be the past & everyday is a present [gift]. though this present will eventually be past , but just let it be and live everyday , everyhour , everyminute,everysecond to the fullest!!! okay i know i'm not living my life to the fullest now cause i'm "wasting time" blogging here.hahahalol
take every past as an experience/lesson learned and improve it NOW!! and lets not repeat it anymore in present :)
so smile to recieve everyday because its a PRESENT!!
be positive to this awesome present from God, so tt your day will be positive.its our mindset tt matters :)you start a day right , everything will be right :)
hey i think exercise really does help me to fresher me up and a much more healthy brain/thinking :) so you people out there can try it man :) it does help to destress and keep us fit .

2010-08-06T12:34:00.002+08:00

okay I'm back from gym :) morning i saw LM's latest facebook status was like 3hours ago?! so i decided not to text her , and let her have a nice sleep ,cause she was actually planning for things tomorrow. so i shall not disturb her and let her sleep. i ran like an hour or more?! and den do some exercise , slow run of course if not i don think i can last tt long ,10mins and you will see me down !!i just texted her ,hope she rest well :) and hopefully my message din wake her up from her very treasure sleep!! hahahah okay so now preparing to go for class outing at ECP , and its like so damn far away ,but its class outing :) after class outing till like night after dinner , midnight need to go airport "fetch" my brother and tomorrow have to wake up early for LAST NDP TRAINING :( i want more!!!

2010-08-06T01:28:00.002+08:00

SHOULD I OR SHOULD I NOT?
okay never mind.
so basically GOH and me have successfully planned our mini 18th birthday party. and hopefully everything will works well and i really missed my bunch of BFFs a lot. its been like months seen i last see them other den GOH !! hahaha
we actually planned a PAJAMAS party whereby all invited will have to wear pajamas to our party. will be having pop-luck dinner to save money and since our main motive is to meet up together to chat , eat , play and cam-whore :)
we choose to celebrate both our birthday together is because firstly our birthday are quite near , secondly we find it quite awkward to have party to just celebrate one birthday so we merge. lastly cause the day after my birthday i will be having o'level english oral , so during my birthday day i will have to prepare for my oral , how sad is tt , but its so much better den last year where i got a terrible birthday cause oral was on tt day and i thought i did badly so i don really have mood to celebrate. hopefully i can make it this year man i don want to retake it anymore , twice is enough.
so friends like what i have said , if you gals cannot make it for our party its perfectly fine with us !!! hahahha presentSS must be there alright?! hahahah okay la just kidding. its been so long since we last joke with each other , i missed it terribly.
so my holiday have started 4 weeks of YOG break and straight after tt will be 2 weeks of exams and holiday again. i promised to study hard for this upcoming exams man , cause i did not perform well for all those mini test in class.but i need some inspiration to go on!! goodnight people :) will be going gym cum swimming tomorrow either all by myself or with LM if she remembers. so we shall see what God have planned for me tomorrow , to be alone or what :) tomorrow shall be a tiring week cause morning gym+swim , noon class outing to ECP , midnight go airport fetch my brother.three months is really fast!!! and he is back.
smile :)

2010-08-05T19:42:00.004+08:00

awesome songs from the movie "Letters to God"

the song tt really inspired me and spur me to move forward.
i salute to all this kids , i want to thank them ,they "taught" me a lesson.
[oh btw the video shows : faces of childhood cancer]
we human are a selfish group of animals, at times we always think about ourself and not the others. we always think tt we are in the worst conditions and why are we like this , but look at the others around us , they faced worst conditions then us but still faced it bravely, being so strong.What about us ?! facing such "minor" problems and we are thinking of giving up.
and this song below sings what i want to tell the unfortunates and even the fortunates to be positive , nth is impossible because [impossible = I M POSSIBLE]. so stay strong, don give up so easily, & sm:)e . He will bless us.He sees every single one EQUALLY, no discrimination in Him. so press on :) this awesome kids can do it , why can't we?!?!?!
there will always be solutions to everything , it is just how WE faced & overcome it.

are you inspired?
i am :)

2010-08-04T18:25:00.003+08:00

I'm starting to "emo" already , NDP is coming to an end , it's like less than a week. time really flies. will our friendships with all the NDPeeps end just like tt?! good time really really flies. i will miss those wonderful moments with all the NDPeeps.
enough of emoing.
i'm so tired this few weeks , especially this week . i need to rest , i want to rest.
i want to brighten up my days ((((:

2010-08-03T23:10:00.002+08:00

Whenever i'm chatting to people i know but not as close via sms or msn , i will act as though i'm like confessing/proposing to someone. everybody who knows me well, will know !!!!! hahhahaha like whenever i not sure if i should said some things to them i will like "should i send , should i ?" den i will take damn long to press send/enter . after i pressed it i will den scream!!!! its bit non-sense but i dunno why i behave like tt !! and i thought its super funny of me !!!!

2010-08-03T22:02:00.003+08:00

I am so missing all my beloved BFFs [mag,xy,mq,jessie,wyping] , it's been like some time since we last meet up together and so long since we last cam-whore!!! holiday are coming soon , tt means we are going to meet up real soon ((((: but this holiday gonna be a busy one for us cause right after holiday its exams weeks!! so we will be like sort of "studying". i have already planned my holiday!!! week 1 & 3 will be study week and week 2 will be "playing" week. i need a break seriously and badly !!! so damn stress up from all those reports and tests and upcoming exams!!! i cannot take it anymore , i think its too much for me currently. preparing for o'level english and end semester exams !!! i just want to get rid of them asap!! like how i wish its end oct now, exams ended and o'level english completed.
currently still very "on" ,on writing my letters to God , 3 letters written and more to come man. everytime when i'm writing it , i will be like full of thoughts and suddenly all good&bad memories just flash back!! is tt a good thing?! i hope so ?!
this two weeks gonna be a very cool and awesome weeks .
coming friday 6/8 :
morning gym+swim sessions with LM
afternoon semester one class outing
night airport to "fetch" my brother
sat 7/8 :
NDP DAY !!!!!! ((((((((:
mon 9/8 :
its NATIONAL DAY ((: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE !!!
hopefully it will and i think it will gonna be a very fun day with NDPeeps (((:
................................................................
after joining NDP , i must say tt "MY WEEKENDS ARE NO LONGER BORING !!! NO MORE HOME ALONE !!!"
but NDP is like less den a week , and will my weekends be as bore as before once AGAIN?!
i don't want.

2010-08-03T13:24:00.002+08:00

i'm like so desperate and "greedy" to want to get iphone 4 , itouch, ipad!!
hahahahha i know it's impossible to get all.
my papa allow me to buy iphone 4 but i needa wait till like mid oct den i can get it cause my contact end till then. and its like by the time if the iphone 4's problem are all fixed den the price will automatically increase , i don want , i don have so much money !! i'm like saving for it , but its like 2 more months !!
finally analytical chem test is over!!!
studying for achem test have like killed tons and tons of my brain cells.
i love school but i hate test/exams!!! which is like making me hate studying and going to school everyday.
but like what GOH and MAG told me. we worked so hard for the past 10 years and so hard for N & o'levels , it will be a waste if i give up just like tt. so i will try (((: holidays coming ((:

2010-08-02T22:28:00.002+08:00

i may not have a lot of friends , like what others might have. but i'm really really very please with what i have now. The amount/number of friends doesn't really matter to me right now , not even the past too. glad with whatever i have now.
but its like a have different groups of friends. weekdays will be with classmates and 5N1'09 SP mates ; weekends will be with NDP peeps ; holidays will be gathering with BFFs . i did notice tt every single different outing there will always be wyping . our friendships really closen a lot and very different from secondary school. We have HTH sessions whenever we meet , and i love HTH-ing very much (:
I LOVE YOU , ALL MY BELOVED FRIENDS (:
I enjoyed every single moment with every single one of you.
I treasure all the times we have together.
Be it up & down,
We shared everything together.
I think its all FATED.
FATED to have all of you awesome people as my friends,
brightening up my days.
So THANKFUL to GOD tt HE bring all of you to my life (:
lastly, i just want to thank all of you for being there for me whenever i need help, not giving up on me
and allow me to be your friend .
LONG LASTING FRIENDSHIPS (:
ONCE MY FRIENDS , FOREVER MY FRIENDS ((:

2010-08-02T01:02:00.002+08:00

it's no longer the same
things changed.
i felt tt i'm just being used.
it's just like what i thought.
maybe i'm really thinking too much *hopeso*
for the time being just be positive (:

2010-08-01T18:56:00.004+08:00

have a great day today (:
wyping cannot go for service today so it's like me alone ,nobody to accompany me high. until today den i realised the power of wyping's morning call !!! hahahah planning to wake up at 7am today but i forgot to set my alarm clock !! and luckily i need to pee urgently and i woke up at 8am today!!! suppose to meet QC 815 and jul 915 at tampinese. so i was like chiong ar!!!! and i reached tamp at about 920am and QC missed the bus !! so btw the time we reached expo was already like 1015. everything still so fun there. yesterday me and goh was like talking about FAITH and MIRACLES and today's service they talked about this , like so coincidental!!!! after service , LM, jul , Chuan needa go for briefting until 2pm . they wanted to have lunch together so they asked us to go briefing tgt with them . it was quite cool . REALLY VERY THANKFUL TO LIANGMING & CHINGYEE & JULIANA & CHUAN LIAN for praying for me. really touched(: after tt we went to changi for lunch at xin wan cafe. on our way there , lots of laughters and it was so fun , even when we were at airport . so many funny things happened. like liang ming and me fell onto the floor tgt!!!cause i was playing with chuanlian and liang ming wanted to disturb me by "tripping" me and so qiao something just happened and we fell down tgt!!! hahahahah not bcoz she successfully tripped me but other things.
cause today was like almost raining the whole day , den when we exit the expo , the wind was like so strong den chuanlian and jul and me did the same thing at the same time , after this chuan made up a "joke" which made us laughed like mad.
the lunch outing was like suffering for liangming and me ,cause like the 2 of us were so full till we really cannot move and me vomited when they made me laugh!! starting was like a little vomit came out , but i "sucked" it back , but until i really cannot tahan , i vomitted in the toilet.
everything today was so fun!!! enjoyed it a lot (: too many things to mention it all here (:
great day out with liangming , juliana , chuanlian , qianci , amanda, jessica
oh ya suddenly thought of something funny tt happened just now.
during the service briefing we were where to makan after tt , den chuan suggested popeye and i was like very randomly said " POPEYE THE SAILOR-MOON" did you spot any mistake?! i din even notice until they laughed and corrected me!!! should be "popeye the sailor man"

2010-08-01T00:00:00.004+08:00

have a freaky awesome day today (: training + movie.
training was quite not much , cause GOH and me got so angry with folding of balloons ,especially folding flowers!!! other den the balloon folding section,others quite okay . we played one game called the ladder game and the funniest part was wyping's shoe flew out!!!!! after like so many weeks of training , today's lunch was the best ,it was first time served hot with egg tart (: like normally the KFC/PIZZA hut served were like soften already. last training/rehearsal at simei ITE ;( sad man cause like our days with the mentors and sengkangers are like limited. BUT... okay will mention it at later part.
okay so after training about 3pm we went down to vivo cause we were watching movie with cluster people. "letters to god" second time watching it , yet still so nice. and this is the first time after knowing wyping for so many years ,knowing tt she will actually cried out so badly in a cinema. but it is really a great movie which only shows in vivo due to some religious things in it. second time watching it, knowing the stories already yet i still cried !! inspiring & touch movie (:
okay so after movie about 930pm already some of us have to go home first cause it was quite late already and the others head for supper. so i was like awww so sad our last NDP rehearsal/training!!! cause like it will be kind of diffcult for us to meet out ,cause all of us have school & work . den LM suddenly said " we must meet out every saturday okay?! steady ar(:" den me and wyping was like wow , yes of course of course (: like so happy to hear such simple yet "meaningful" things from them (:
will be going service tomorrow with qian ci and really really hope tt everything will fine and will be fun(: really really hope tt our friendships with all this AWESOME MENTORS & sengkangers will continue and last even after NDP'10 !!!
like the movie "Letters to GOD" i will try to write one everyday(:

letters to GOD:
just want to pray for my friend[s] , and hope everything will be fine(:
stay strong my friend , like how strong tyler was when he was still alive.

2010-07-30T13:44:00.004+08:00

you got to be kidding me man!! people as in singaporeans have been standing-by qeueing for Iphone 4 yesterday about 7am?! so early. they are insane !!! tt is the power of technology!!
already planned to go swimming and gym today but the weather spoiled everything !!
and now i'm stuck at home alone and have to study!!
oh ya days ago , i was at vivo's pageOne den i saw this qoute " life begins at the end of your comfort zone" , and it's like a week ago i just mention about taking the "one" step out of my comfort zone and here i saw this.
Everything tt are happening around me , i strongly believed tt it is all FATE (:
what a boring day at home today!!!!!!
nth much is done , wasting so much time . a day wasted just like tt.. i hate it!!! i feel so useless

2010-07-29T23:05:00.002+08:00

i have got 2 post today . so now i shall start with the first one. regarding my very bo liao classmates!!
they called me at 3am and they said this : "it's time to wake up and pee"
it's hilarious don't you think so!!! hahahah
so i won't sit there and do nth . tomorrow morning round 4am i shall call ooi yong and i will tell him this : " it's time to wake up and queue for Iphone 4!!".
tt time i was like who the crazy will call me at this hour!!
2nd post :
NDP group outing to aston for dinner!! have an awesome to the ness times together with WP,JUL,KW,LM,QC. we actually queue for like 1h30mins before we got out seats , and the one and a half hour is never a moment boring!! laughters and everything (((:
den dunno why we "hopped" to the hotmail topic , den GOH was trying to expose my PIGLET email address the them but before she have the chance to speak i already blasted out laughing!!! like gosh!!! ahahhaha oh ya we were talking about jul's hotmail add and the laughters began!!! like it lasted for 10 mins?! is it tt long? about there.. so much fun . I'm enjoying and i enjoyed every single moments (:
wildwildwet?! cool!! i want !!! (:

2010-07-28T20:13:00.002+08:00

after my lessons at 1pm , i travelled down to vivo to watch "LETTERS TO GOD" because vivo's golden village is the only cinema which shows it due to some religious thing i think. NO regrets !! it was inspiring , touching , meaningful and i cried damn sadly throughout the entire movie. How strong the "main character" can be when faced with such "helpless" problems.
i don mind watching the movie again!! it's really a nice inspiring and touching movie to watch.
i like (:
Tomorrow NDP's group outing to douby ghuat !! i'm excited (:

2010-07-27T21:04:00.003+08:00

I would like to share something , which i find it quite meaningful .Here it goes :
"There is nothing you need to do to deserve happiness. There are no 'minimal requirements' for you to fulfill before you can claim happiness. You deserve happiness simply by virtue of having been born. That's it. Nothing more is required. Be happy."
qouted : LET's ALL BE HAPPY

2010-07-27T17:23:00.004+08:00

today is tuesday!!! and tuesday will always be the longest day from 8am to 5pm. trying so hard to pay attention in class but i can't . i'm moody the whole day BECAUSE my tummy ache the whole afternoon!!! so wanting to shit but i don dare to shit at public toilet.so when i reached home , immediately chiong to the toilet to settle my big business.
i find tt my school works are getting tougher, chim theories and conplicated calculations. got to get a week or two out during the YOG break for SERIOUS revisions and o'level english oral is coming in bout a month or less 25/8 is the day man!!!

2010-07-26T18:20:00.002+08:00

SHOPPING session with GOH today (: i thought i bought quite a lot of things but reached home unpacking realising how little i have bought and how much i have spent!!
as in i got only like 2 tops and 2 bottoms and others all "unnessary" stuffs (: but i thought they were nice and useful so i got them (:

2010-07-25T21:52:00.002+08:00

i find tt blogging to me is getting more and more like twittering. i can blog on so many things a day!!!
okay now..
REALISING HOW NEAR MY O'LEVEL ENGLISH ORAL IS GOING TO BE!!!!
SCARE!!!!
CAN I MAKE IT?!
AM I GOING TO MAKE IT?!
I CAN ONLY PRACTICE PRACTICE PRACTICE AND MORE PRACTICE!!!!
AND PRAY PRAY PRAY WHEN THE RESULTS GOING TO COME OUT NEXT YEAR JAN.

2010-07-25T19:38:00.002+08:00

i think i'm too pampered by my parents. its like whatever i ask they will will either say "up to you" or okay. is tt a good thing?! because of them helping me so much , causing me to be so comfortable in my comfort zone. i think tt i am not independent , and i want to learn to be independent , i want to get out of my comfort zone. really hope tt i can do things and solve things my own , without their help. i'm too dependent on them.
i'm spoiled.
i have no worries for money. no worries for a lot of things people my age are worrying about.
THANK YOU DADDY & MUMMY !!! BUT I WANT AND I NEED TO LEARN TO BE INDEPENDENT ,if not i think i will suffer .
i need to learn to be more patient too
smile (:

2010-07-25T13:42:00.002+08:00

Will be having CRS module final test which is presentation , something like a debating presentation . But now i'm having fever , cough , flu and sore throat causing me to loss my voice!!! i need my voice for tomorrow !! i don want to forward this module *touchwood* , get this done and tt's it !!! just pray that my voice will get back tonight and i can present well tomorrow because a pass is not enough!!
Everything tt i have been doing and thinking so far are making me more sure tt i have made the right choice yesterday (: so proud of myself (: finally decided and made the RIGHT choice. things been going my way so far and hopefully it will continue.....
GOH will be praying for you alright!! tonight will be the night !! HE will be on your side , guilding you and showing you the way HE want you to be . so no worries ,everyone {LM,KW,JUL,CHUAN,JOVII,etc} will support you no matter what !!
jia you (:

2010-07-24T19:46:00.004+08:00

okay i think without me typing out my first sentence for 24/7 blog post , you people already know what i'm going to say. It's like almost the same things for every saturday (:
NDP's training was AWESOME (:
have so much fun there , tt makes me forget about my sickness!!! though i have sore throat yet i still scream , sing !!! hahahaha
SO FUN FUN FUN !!!
GOH and I thought tt the training timing was kind of short.
we are always so looking forward to saturday training and sometimes sunday service yet whenever sat and sun reach , time will fly very fast. and yet mon to fri pass so slow!!!
Ice-breaking games was tiring!!! hahahah run run and more run!!!!
tiring but FUN!!! hahaha
I'M LOVIN IT (:
and everything tt i have been troubling about last few weeks, suddenly just solved ,decided what i want. and hopefully i have made the right choice and move (:
jia you (:
and now it's GOH. no matter what you got to make a choice (:
will support you no matter what you choice in the end alright !! hahahah

2010-07-23T22:14:00.001+08:00

PEOPLE !!! IT'S NDP TRAINING TOMORROW (:
I LOVE SATURDAY!!!!

2010-07-23T12:40:00.004+08:00

I thought that i was too "comfortable"with everything, anything i am doing right now.
so my aim from now on is to STEP OUT OF LIM QIMIN'S COMFORT ZONE (:
I depend too much on my parents , friends , in fact everyone around me.
I am so not making any progress in my life !!
Everyday is a gift , but until now then i understand it!!
meaning i have been wasting my time all this 18 years !!
not making my everyday to the fullest , taking things for granted.
I don't want to regret in future not doing what i am suppose to do in the "past"
Am not taking things seriously enough.
But from tomorrow onwards , i will try to live my everyday to the max.
"Live as if you were to die tomorrow ,
Learn as if you were to live forever."
this morning my ma came into my room while i was sleeping, asking me to translate one of her message for her. after i read it , i was like awake , suddenly very awake.the message is something like this " ......'s brother have just passed away this morning" . my heart totally sank after reading it , though tt person is nobody to me , but it is a life to me , a life tt have just been gotten away few hours ago.
I'm so afraid of seeing/hearing the words "PASSED AWAY" .
It just makes me feel so ......scare?! my phobia to it will never get away.
okay(: change topic
STILL, i need to get of my comfort zone and start to be independent (:

2010-07-21T20:54:00.001+08:00

i want a break.
i need a break.
i'm tired, very tired.
shopping (:
hahahahahahha
tts my main motive !!

2010-07-21T16:21:00.002+08:00

It's now time to get serious with school work (:
especially for the upcoming o'level english,
i just want to get it done , and no more take 3 !!
not going to think about those things for the time being until i have the time.
people don't ask me , what is so bothering me cause i myself don even know , but just feel tt something and a lot of things are affecting me. but for now i'm going to let it be , not think about it . i'm not giving up or anything but i need a break first (:
currently , trying my very best to study , writing out notes for MST2.
recaping everything lecturers been teaching in class.
really hope i will score well for MST2. I have been quite slack for MST1 ,not studying enough. so now no more okay(:
BEING A SINGAPORE STUDENT IS SO STRESSFUL!!!!!!!
and i was looking at those flashmob things in youtube , i thought it was damn cool!!!! i want flashmob!!! why sengkang-ers don have it!!!!

2010-07-20T22:20:00.004+08:00

I have been thinking through "it" a lot this few days.
maybe i should just give up this "thought" ?!
and continue with my life like it has never happen before, i have never thought of it before?!
maybe it should not have started in the first place.
it's troubling me and distracting me for quite some times and even until now.
thinking of giving up and go back to my "normal life".
i'm tired already.
"I'm not saying NO to you but ...."
"I'm really very sorry"
"i want to ..."
"but i dunno how"
"tell me what to do,please!!"

2010-07-19T11:59:00.005+08:00

teacher's comment on my english essay
the one i wrote about GOH :
here it is
"From: Tan, Betty
July 18, 2010, 04:43:13 PM SGT
Updated on: July 18, 2010, 04:45:46 PM SGT
Regarding: Essay submitted on July 12, 2010, 01:57:45 PM SGT

Hi QiMin, you have improved and I enjoyed reading this essay.Just remember a few things:
1) Use plural (with 's') for more than one person e.g. by our sides, in our lives.
2) Use past tense after is, are, has, have eg. was forced.
3) Subject and verb must agree, e.g. Everyone has not have, Wyping who has not have.
Good work. Grade C5. "
though its just a C5 , but at least i pass!!! i have never ever score any higher den C5 for english before!!

school now is full presentations!!
all my lab work are done ,and some modules completed .
though its good tt i do not have to go school on mon and fri , lessons end earlier almost everyday, but i'm stuck at home preparing for presentations and NDP DANCE!!!! hahahaha
just don want to be the extra extrodinary whereby everyone can dance so well and me being so "lack". though i'll most probably be standing at the last row when dancing but i think it will be very obvious to make a wrong move.
i'm seriously enjoying myself a lot in NDP with all NDP sengkang-ers.
My weekends are so brighten up after joining (:
i know i have been repeating this like dunnno how many times but
from the bottom of my heart , i really want to thank them for bringing so much joy to me and not letting me have a chance to emo.
i treasure and appreciate every single moment with them and
really glad to get to know them all (:
lovely people(:
but BFFs{jessie,XY,MQ,MAG,GOH} you guys still place the most important part in my heart and life , i won't forget you gals, and our friendships will last right?!
i love everyone around me right now!! i am enjoying myself , my life (:
thanks to my lovely FAMILY,FRIENDS,SENIORS,NDP SENGKANGERS,people i got to know from service,etc.
i'm a happy girl right?!
i'll try my best to get away from all those troubles tt are troubling me this period of time. and live a simple and happy life!! cause i guess the world is really going to end soon!! singapore is flooding like nobody's business, natural disasters are so happening around the world.
SO GOH a message to you.. we got to cheer up alright (: in fact everyone around me , everyone in this world you all got to cheer up and live happily with no regrets (:
no regrets not accompanying your families and friends , and doing what we suppose to do.
so if you are a human , lets all cheer up tgt and leave no regrets.
leave all negative things at the back and move forward.
it may be hard to do so , but lets try our best , alright
stay positive & smile(:

2010-07-18T20:46:00.005+08:00

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BECAUSE MY MUM JUST BOUGHT A CURL HAIR THINGY , AND SHE TRIED IT ON ME!!!!
SO I WAS QUITE LOOKING FORWARD TO THE OUTCOME OF MY SEXY LITTLE CURLY HAIR!!!!!
SO AFTER ABOUT 15MINS OF FIXING MY HAIR , MY MUM HELP ME TOOK OFF ALL THOSE THINGS ON MY HAIR!!
AFTER THAT , I IMMEDIATELY RUN TO THE MIRROR AND LOOK AT MYSELF!!!!
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I SAW A GHOST!!!!!!
IS TT PERSON INSIDE THE MIRROR,
AUNTY OR WHAT!!!!!
SO FREAKLY MATURE!!!!
I LOOKED JUST LIKE A RICH TAI TAI!!!!
LIKE I JUST GOT BOMB BY SOME CHEMCIAL!!!!
I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING!!!!!!!
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ISN'T IT CHIO!!!!
HAHAHAHAH
MY MUM MAKE ME REALISED HOW I'LL LOOK IF I GO CURL MY HAIR IN SALON
I WON'T WANT TO CURL LIKE THIS!!!!
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHALOL

2010-07-18T19:58:00.002+08:00

another awesome day with great people (:
kind of in good mood today, enjoyed every single moment
no time for me to emo today!!
tt was great!!!
looking forward for more , more and more(:
my weekends are never going to boring (:
am i not right to say tt ?!?!?!
because i was so enjoying myself today ,
i'm totally exhausted and i just need my bed now and get my beauty sleep!!
yesterday had badminton marathon with minyan right after my NDP training and we played till like 1030pm from 8pm. totally burned my fats!!!!
super duper tiring and have to wake up at 7am today !!!
BUT TTS NTH MAN!!!!
COZ I"M ENJOYING
AND
I LOVE IT
I LOVE THIS KIND OF LIFE!!!!
(:

2010-07-17T22:40:00.002+08:00

A message to me :
"you cannot free yourself from a problem by shutting your eyes to it.
To free yourself from a problem you have to acknowledge it and face it with your eyes and heart open."

Today NDP training was quite fun but i was a bit so call "emotional". GOH and me was like bian xing ren {split personalitity} ,we were so high during the training and flag day , but right after NDP we were like silents and become very "emotional", we had HTHT in the bus while on our way back to woodlands from simei. After the talk , we felt like both of us think of a lot of things the same way ,and we understand each other man!!! hahahahahah
i thought it was really a great talk and i enjoyed it a lot (:
we have the same problems , we troubled on similar things.
being each others listening ears , giving one another yi jian , ITS GREAT!!!!!

have been affected by something this few days and was not in good mood this few days {and GOH have been a really good listener, i thank you} ,she encouraged me.
I have been trying to stay positive as promised but the past few days i have no idea why i just can't make myself do it. me and GOH is sort of having the same "problem" and we just can't make ourselve to think positive.
but through all this things , i got to understand more and
like what GOH said its
FATE.
i think it's part and parcel of our life{did i spell it correctly or typed the right words}
it's either you GET IT or LOSE IT {its loss or lost?!}
it all comes down to FATE again!!
{p.s : me and GOH are not facing boy-girl relationship problems!! it's just some other thing tt is bothering us.alright (: so don anyhow think hahahah}

2010-07-16T16:19:00.004+08:00

in order to change myself , to be a better person
first and most importantly , i need to change my way of thinking
if not no matter what and how hard i try to change ,
nth will help
FAITH.

"TIME WILL HEAL THE PAIN"

2010-07-16T15:16:00.000+08:00

i had a BAD DREAM just now.

2010-07-15T19:26:00.002+08:00

i have been "emo-ing" in school the whole day ): no idea what exactly i was emo-ing about , but i'm feeling like as in i got a lot of things to trouble and left unsolved. can't exactly tell what are those things. i think today was one of the few days i actually paid full attention in every lessons, because i talk to no one and just keep doing my work. maybe i should emo more in order to pay attention in class huh?! hahahahlol
i have been eating macdonalds for 4 straight days :
monday : large french fries
tuesday : large french fries
wednesday : mac nugget meal upsize
thursday : mcflurry!!!!
gosh!!! i think i have inserted too much carbohydrate !!! and too much FATS!!
very high chances after 3 years you will see me like hmm.... sheng dian xia's figure.
in school of business school there are only ONE foodcourt ,polar cafe & another so call waffle cafe (bcoz everytime i walked pass the smell of waffle is always so nice)
and do you know in school of chemical and life sciences there are 5 foodcourts , 2 macdonalds , 1 KFC , cheers , hotshot cafe , bang deli , subway ,pizza hut!!!! foodcourt 1 , 2 , 3 , 4 ,5 is all so near to my block !!!! and its like surrounding us!!!!! and i have been eating non-stop!!!!! hahahahahahah

2010-07-14T19:02:00.002+08:00

Never thought that English lesson can be so FUN (:
so in love with English right now (:
my own set target is to at least do one compo , compre and read once a week.
hopefully i,LIM QIMIN, can PASS 2010 o'level ENGLISH (:
JIA YOU !!!!

2010-07-12T17:39:00.004+08:00

I burned my sexy fingers with HOT CONCENTRATED SULPHURIC ACID during my biochem lab test!!!!
OUCH!!!!!
super pain but i can't scream at the time cause everyone is having test.
den i immediately go washed my hand and the swollen mark immediately pop out
OUCH OUCH OUCH!!!!!
Just now i wrote an english essay which i included GOH in my story. and guess what i scored 5 out of 6 for tt essay (: the story i wrote was half true half i created myself one ..... goh ain't you honoured?! hahahahahah

2010-07-12T14:06:00.003+08:00

I have got no idea why am i so HAPPY today (:
i feel very good together.
but i dunno why?!
early in the morning , although i just don want to get off my bed for school{i was not late nor skip class}, i still feel so alive and energy today (:
okay lets talk about yesterday's service
I WAS TRUELY & TOTALLY INSPIRED.'
QIMIN YOU CAN DO IT (:
POSITIVE +++
SMILE (:

2010-07-12T12:10:00.002+08:00

OH GOSH!! SPAIN WON THE FIFA WORLDCUP!!!
my bubble tea and waffle are now gone!!
but okay la , they won , i should admit they are good (:

2010-07-11T19:20:00.002+08:00

HAVE AN AWESOME DAY TODAY AT FCBC SERVICE TODAY (:
this was my first time going for "service" ,and i thought its was an eye opening experience, and i never know it can be tt fun (:
NICE PEOPLE . NICE SONGS .
After service we went to have dinner with Liang Ming , Kwai Hoong , Juliana , chuan lian , jovii , kristine , qian ci , shiting and goh . Have a lot of fun laughing , joking and singing in the mall!!! hahahah
they are really great people (:
love them all (:

2010-07-10T20:44:00.003+08:00

my weekends :
Basically , my saturday and sunday are like SIAN to the max!! because its always "home alone" , parents all have their own programs and left me alone at home for 2 days!!
but
All thank to NDP , my sat morning to evening is brighten up !! so much fun with great people there (: i'm enjoying every moment tgt with this awesome people (:
I'M SO PROUD TO BE A NDP MOTIVATOR!!!
I WANT TO DO IT AGAIN NEXT YEAR (:
but after training is over , everything back to normal again , watching tv alone , playing com inside my room and i got no one to talk to!! settle dinner myself is always the most headache part . you know at least GOH got ai to watch from 7-10? i got nth , so its always after NDP training bath , sleep , dinner and computer.
I want a more exciting weekends!! like i'm only 18 year old this year and i'm already "complaining" about my weekends.
SERIOUSLY SENGKANG HEARTLANDERS ROCKS TO THE MAX!!!
{our mentors , everyone !!}
GOH you got to agree with me right ?
so i shall start to find meaningful things to do , to brighten up my weekends (:
maybe i can consider volunteering (:

2010-07-09T17:01:00.002+08:00

World Cup final!!! i'm going to go for Netherlands !! the reasons very simple , because i just want to be different from GOH!! so this time round we betting for a piece of WAFFLE/DONUT!! WOW , hey people don xiao kan okay , it may be cheap but its still our money !!
Monday 230am Netherlands vs Spain !!
and we shall see which team will win (:
Hours ago i went to NYP to look for xinyi to ask for her help in photoshop thing and i saw a lot of my sec sch classmates!! {zhengchong , rebecca , siling} cool (:
Wyping and me are currently preparing a birthday present for our NDP mentor , its quite a DIY thing .so both of us are like technology idoits , no sense of arts~~ ,causing us to have headache this entire week!! a brillant idea as a gift but the hardwork behind it is OMGosh!! agree with me GOH?!

2010-07-08T09:25:00.002+08:00

I have been LATE for school for four consecutive days!!! ironically , i was not mark late!!! because i managed to rush to class before teachers (: am i not lucky !!! ahahahha
and yesterday , i was randomly asking GOH who will win the semi-final worldcup {Germany vs Spain} .. and since both of us supported different teams , i told her , lets bet for a cup of bubble tea!! and now i regretted saying tt and can i take back my words!! hahahahha
GOH GAMBLING IS NOT GOOD !!!! HAHAHA
ar but as promised ,I will get her bubble tea..
SPORTSMENSHIP + shou dao yao zhao dao!!
again i just want to say :
SPAIN WON means GOH WON means I LOSE!!!
GERMANY vs SPAIN
0 : 1
but just want to conclusion both team played a good game with good strategies i believe ... 22 men in a big field running and fighting over a ball!!!! and they are all earning big money!!! what can i say ?!

2010-07-06T20:56:00.005+08:00

have a great "high tea" with BFF wyping just now. acutally we wanted to just get starbucks tumbler for Kwai hoong's birthday present , den suddenly there was such thing tt you buy those tumbler you get free coffee. so we was like WOWO , very aunty kind hahahahha den we decided to get a seat there and design tt tumbler. We wanted to choose pictures for the tumbler , but in the end the 2 of us keep laughing at our unglam photos. let me show you how unglam it was!!! hahaha

this is how unglam we can get when we din notice tt camera were aiming at us;B
GOOD NEWS FOR ME ;B
from this week onwards monday and friday i will have no lesson !!! no lessons means no SCHOOL !! no school , means i don have to wake up early!!! awesome~~~
this will last till mid oct when sem 2 comes. Because my class have finished our practical and lab work !! no school on mon and fri !!! and tues ,wed thurs lesson will end early whenever there is a practical slot!!!wow huh!!!

2010-07-06T12:08:00.004+08:00

Have got no idea why i enjoyed blogging this few weeks ;B
and people don get shock!!!
i think i soon going to be AMEN together with wyping!!!
some pictures for NDP :

and a few minutes ago , i just receieved a message from singapore polytechnic saying tt i'm their Student Portal Online Quiz winner and asked me to go collect prize!! hahaha so lucky can!!! gao bu hao i'm the only one we did tt quiz , tts why !!! hahahha

2010-07-06T10:46:00.003+08:00

I overslpt today AGAIN!!! but i was AGAIN not late for school ...hahhaha
really very impress with my speed .i woke up an hour before lesson start and i need 50mins to reach school yet i'm still not late ;B impressive !!! hahahah
I was equally messy as yesterday. today is like worst , my hair dropped everywhere , wore a slipper out , teeshirt and shorts ... like so anyhow!!
Just finished biochem lecture and i learned something for my lecturer.
NEVER STUDY LAST MINUTE
whatever he said really inspired me and really hope i can apply it !! i really want to but i'm just so lazy whenever i reach home.
but i gonna try ;B.

2010-07-05T22:49:00.002+08:00

okay i think i should blog in details on the NDP chalet for sengkang heartlanders which was held last weekend 2ndjuly to 4thjuly 2010.
Seriously , i have no regret joining a NDP motivator, i have so much fun together with the mentors and all the heartlanders. Even since i joined i have been looking forward to all the events and saturdays. If got the chances i will definitely want to sign up again next year as a motivator too. The only thing i'm worried about is all the dancing part, i can't dance!!! hahaha okay was quite okay , starting to get few of the steps already. Most of the people get the steps already and i'm still like half way there one.
Chalet day 1 :
it was a friday , all of us got school before tt , so we meet up with mentors at around 830pm and then we set off to the chalet tgt. By the time we reached the chalet its about 10 already and by the time everyone reached its already 1130pm like this. then we settle down for awhile, "heart talk"{is it hard/heart hahaha} till around 12plus den we decided to go prawnin .Till 3am and den we set off for supper !!after tt liangming sent us back den while walking towards her car she was trying to take off her belt and i thought it was some kind of cat trying to touch me den i scream out loud, after tt realising tt it was her belt...just can;t stop laughing!! hahaha till like 4 plus , went back to chalet talk again and den we slept at around 430am .I was suffering the entire night , freezing cold and i did not even sleep for a single minute. At around 5am me need the toilet urgenly but i don dare to go out alone so i was trying to force myself to sleep and don think about it till everyone wake up.SUddenly , thank GOD , wyping suddenly faced me with her eyes open!!!! i immediately call her!!! hahahahha.... after toilet i tried to sleep but can't so i was trying to get some warm heat from wyping but she ignored me!!! and the next day she told me she actually weas about to sleep everytime i touched her.. hahahha feel so sorry !!!!
Day 2 :
day 2 we woke up at around 6am , bath , go for breakfast and den set off to simei ITE for NDP training. Really super tired but i tried to make myself awake. Training was super fun .Basically games , dances !!!! so fun !!!!! especially the games part. after training around 3pm we went out as a group to prepare somethings for the night BBQ.on our way to some shopping centre , we played those "blackmagic" games in the bus.. and i should admit the joke we have now a days is so different from the best !!!!
Night BBQ was quite i dunno how to say..but everything was super FUN!!!!!!!!!!
day 3 :
wake up early bath, because most of them need to go church for service, we don't want to trouble them so we wake up tgt with them so they don have to come back and check out after their service.after tt we took transport home and i was damn tired. reached home immediately jumped onto my bed and sleep!!!!!
AfterALL i enjoyed myself a lot these 3 days and really hope there will be such things again ;B
The people are awesome!! loving the mentors , and sengkang heartlanders!!!!
you guys rock my life man~~ so much fun !!!!
photos all in facebook ;B do check it out
all very unglam {candid shots} hahaha
i cannot stand also , super ugly.
and i think i'm growing uglier and uglier!!!! arh~~~~
fatter and fatter!!!!

2010-07-05T10:50:00.003+08:00

today is MONDAY!!
my lesson start at 10am in the morning and usually i will leave my house to catch the train an hour before lesson.
so today i actually overslept , by the time my ma woke me up it was already 905am and i was like a ninja , i jumped off my bed , quick shower{i don even know if i'm clean} and quickly change and run out!!!!
i keep reminding myself to stay positive , because if i'm late for max 10 mins i will either be mark as late or absent , and if its my attendance doesn't meet at least 75% i cannot take exams. and if i'm late for 2 times it will be converted into absent...
and tell you guys one shocking news.!!!!!
in my 18 years of life and 14years of education , i have NEVER NEVER once late for school before {but late for outing hahah} , so i don want to spoil my beautiful record.
okay when the train doors opened i walked super fast out and rushed to my very far away classroom.
then i opened the classroom door , SURPRISINGLY!!!!! only got like few people inside and the most important thing is LECTURER was not there yet.
GOSH~~~ i'm so lucky can!!! its good to stay positive!! hahahahha everything might go your way.
though i'm not late today, but my hair and bag is very messy.
and i just want to say :
I WILL TRY NOT TO DO THINGS LAST MINUTE ANYMORE
be it packing bag for school , homeworks , in fact everything ;B
no more panicking last minute, tt really freak me out ,
though its kind of "chi ji" , will try my best not to!!
;B

2010-07-04T23:54:00.007+08:00

In life , we rarely can have things the way we want it to be , be it those people around us ,etc.But i was telling myself , why not take it positively , accept it and move on. Maybe this is how our life is "planned".
Why want to make our live so miserable , allowing "those things" to affect us.
I promised meself :
to think positively
appreciate and treasure
etc

another thing is,
whenever there is a START to something , there will always be an END to it.
why can't it last?
it is always when we started to enjoy each others presence and hope to continue
things will start to die down and eventually END.

"GOOD TIME FLIES"
don't you agree?

okay but no matter what , as promised myself to take things positively , i will!!
This is part of our life , everyone faced the same problem
but why is it tt some can just let it be and go on with their life , yet some take it so seriously , making life so miserable ?!
p.s : this is nth related to relationship problem , because i don have such problem , i'm still enjoying my singlehood ;B isn't tt awesome!!
so from now onwards i'm going make my life simple and happy

"POSITIVE THINKING" ;B

so who is gonna come join me ? lets lead a simple and positive life tgt ;B
and nothing can stop us & affect us ;B
i will treasure every moment from now.
so lets enjoy "enternal" life ;B and leave no regrets
i'm going to :

"LIVE AS IF I WERE TO DIE TOMORROW"
"lEARN AS IF I WERE TO LIVE FOREVER"
--GANDHI--
So people lets live our life to the max everyday , no matter what
nth shall stop us ;B

so now i'm trying very hard to achieve it

"DARE TO DREAM & BELIEVE, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE"

"YOU CAN'T LIVE YOUR LIVE FOR OTHER PEOPLE"

I'm gonna be strong and move on , not going to be afraid

"FAILING TO TRY IS THE BIGGEST FAILURE IN LIFE.TRYING BUT FAILING IS A LESSON LEARNT, A GROWTH JOURNEY..."

Personally i think that it is okay to be weak sometimes , we do cry when we are down , but we can learn from all these experiences and use tt to become stronger ;B
so lets strive hard tgt people ;B
we can do it !! ;B

2010-07-04T10:36:00.002+08:00

NDP's sengkang heartlanders chalet was pretty amazing ;B
enjoyed myself there and hopefully there will be another one ;B
they are all GREAT PEOPLE , AWESOME PEOPLE , continue to rock on man hahahah
check it out yo!!!! ;B

2010-06-30T09:53:00.001+08:00

you got to be strong alright ?!
i know it will not be easy.
we will always be there for you , if you need our help ;B
cause we are BFFs ;B